I’ve missed you, old friend

Yes, I know. It has been eight months since I last opened up this blog to write. EIGHT MONTHS! It’s not that I haven’t wanted to write, I have. More than once, I have constructed interesting posts in my mind, only to never find the time to put pen to paper, or I guess fingers to keyboard as it were.

My last post came right before school started for the year. I guess that should say it all. This year has been busy; busier than I could have ever imagined. I actually remember thinking that with my youngest boys starting preschool, I would have all this spare time to work, to get caught up on projects, to have time for myself….. except that isn’t exactly how it has gone.

Instead I have spent a very hectic last eight months juggling everyone’s busy schedules. My days are spent driving kids to school, picking them up, volunteering at their schools whenever possible, driving to after-school activities, finding time to help with homework, trying to keep the house running, and just occasionally sneaking in a few moments to sit back and enjoy life at this stage. It’s exhausting. Seriously. I don’t know how other moms do it, especially if they have more kids than me. I am worn out….

So no, by the end of a long day, I’m usually not in the mood to sit down and write. I’m much more in a curl-up-with-a-book-and-glass-of-wine mood, or maybe a Netflix-and-ice-cream-sundae kind of mood.

As it is, I find my time here drawing to a rapid close, as the clock tells me I must head out very soon to pick up my boys from preschool. I’m glad I was able to at least sneak on here for a few precious moments.

So tell me fellow moms, how do YOU do it? How do you get everyone where they need to go, get all the homework done, and get dinner on the table each night? I’m open to any and all suggestions. And maybe those of us who have this craziness worked out into a well-oiled machine, can offer some inspiration to the rest of us who are trying our best to keep up.

A very happy birthday

I almost have to laugh at myself and the fact that I already blew my “write a blog every day for a week” thing yesterday, but man did my head hurt! Anyway, I digress…. tonight I will make it happen, even though I am beyond exhausted, and have a house and yard to finish cleaning while all of my men sleep…..

Today my sweet Connor turned four years old. I’m still a little in shock that he is four already, part of me wishes these boys would stop growing so dang fast! But to be perfectly honest, it is exciting to pass these milestones alongside them, watching them grow and change and develop into their future selves. I wouldn’t trade that for the world.

I know I said before that life has been pretty hectic around here. That is in large part due to some crazy, downright insane, hours Alan is having to work right now. For example, he worked his normal shift yesterday, stayed late, came home for about four hours, went back to work last night, and didn’t get home until this afternoon…. at which point he had to go immediately to bed before he fell over. This is how it’s been around here lately, and it will continue this way for a bit longer. I’ve kind of been doing the single-mom thing, we just don’t get much Daddy time right now.

Unfortunately, without Alan around, a formal birthday party for Connor this year wasn’t really a feasible option. So I decided to just throw a small party today, with Connor’s closest friends, and we went for it. We played in the pool out back, we had pizza and cupcakes, and the kids had a blast. (And Alan slept through all of the screaming and chaos, now that’s exhaustion!) It turned out really well…. But now I’m worn out too.

So with that final thought, I am going to end this blog, go take care of the chores that simply cannot wait until morning, and spend the rest of the evening in a vegetative state in front of the television… until I pass out. I think I earned it today….

Stay-at-Home-Mommy Guilt

I really just need to take a moment to tell the world how absolutely amazing and selfless my husband is. We’ve all been through “Mommy guilt,” but tonight I am feeling a serious case of “stay at home Mommy guilt” because every day I get to enjoy the best job I could ever ask for.

What did I do today? I took the boys to the pool. I hung out poolside with Ben and Alex and friends, while Connor and his best friend took their very first swim lesson. Afterward we came home and drank smoothies. Not exactly your grueling 9-to-5, huh? Don’t get me wrong, not every day is this easy and fun. Raising three children, who until just recently, were all under the age of 3, is hard work… very hard work. There are days when I want to pull my hair out and scream from the top of my lungs. But then there are days like today, when I can just sit back and enjoy the three perfect fruits of our labor, and it almost doesn’t even seem fair.

What did Alan do today? He climbed a tower and hung out (literally), working in 100-degree temperatures for several hours. While I played at the pool. Yup, definitely feeling the guilt right about now…

But you know what is even more incredible? Alan would never ask me to trade places with him. Even though he would love nothing more than to be able to stay home with his boys and be there for every milestone, every silly conversation… he won’t ask for it because he knows how important it is to me to be doing just that, right now. And I love him all the more for it.

So thank you sweetheart. Thank you for giving me the best gift I could ever ask for, this precious time with my boys. Because I know it won’t last forever, it won’t be long until they are off to school, and I must remember to treasure this time always. And I always will.